sangat pelik bila A buat salah,
buat salah maksudnya salah yang tertulis, bukan salah antara manusia tapi salah antara manusia dan tuhan.
dan A kena tegur dengan B. ok A berubah. bagus. good job. tapi..
bila B buat salah yang sama, A kutuk B. A tulis blog yang kononnya B dah berubah. A susun ayat yang buat aku faham macam dulu B tak layak tegur dia dan dia masih baik sehingga sekarang dan dia tak buat kesalahan yang sama.
bagi aku, A lagi teruk daripada B. sebab?
1) kenapa nak kena kutuk B. Tegur la B macam mana dia tegur ko dulu.
2) sekurang-kurangnya B ada keberanian nak tegakkan apa yang dia tahu.
3) A sepatutnya berterima kasih. Sekurang-kurangnya dengan tindakan B, A tidak dibiarkan jahil.
4) mungkin ini ujian Allah untuk A. perubahan B adalah ujian Allah nak tengok tahap iman A. Sama ada bertindak secara fizikal, oral atau hanya membenci. Membenci tak semestinya mengumpat.
I rather be alone than dealing with rejection.
side
i try my best to fullfill your wishes but have you ever try to fullfill mine?
i am there when your heart broke by your bf but have you ever by my side when i lose my beloved father?
i always call you to know whether you are joining us but have you ever care if i join or not?
are you even want to be my friend?
i am there when your heart broke by your bf but have you ever by my side when i lose my beloved father?
i always call you to know whether you are joining us but have you ever care if i join or not?
are you even want to be my friend?
bitching
huh. salam. hari ini hati aku penuh dengan kemarahan. yer MARAH. aku memang nak bad mouth bagi tahu semua orang pasal dier. tapi aku tak leh nak buat macam tu sebab jauh dalam hati aku pandang orang yang bitching pasal orang lain itu orang yang lemah. aku tak lemah, aku sensitif aje. aku memang tak lah baik sangat, tak ada jiwa yang besar, aku suka cerita pasal orang len.
1. sebab life aku bosan. ya BOSAN.
2. aku tak suka cakap pasal aku. pasal diri aku. MISTERIOUS kot. huh.
marah giler aku kat minah tuh. act macam care pasal aku kat kawan aku dan lepas tu kawan aku bawak balik cerita konon aku yang overreact pasal minah tu. well aku overreact pasal dier fake. FAKE. cakap je 'tak marah... tak marah' then bitching dalam blog dier. FAKE. suruh aku cakap kat orang yang tanya pasal dier kat dier sendiri tapi dier sendiri tanya pasal aku kat orang lain. FAKE. konon tak nak join group M pasal group nih banyak mengumpat kat sini then join group C padahal the better half dier kutuk senior aku yang kerja kat kilang kerajaan. FAKE. dier marah orang ynag kutuk maksiat dier tapi kawan baik dier delete semua kawan fb yang seksi sekaligus kutuk dan judging dierorang. FAKE. panggil kawan aku sundal sebab kuar dengan ramai lelaki padahal dier berdua-duaan dalam bilik dengan lelaki. FAKE.
malu la weh. malu lah. at least aku tak kutuk ko, aku tak ignore ko, aku tak ignore soklan ko, tetapi aku kutuk maksiat ko, aku kutuk penipuan ko, aku kutuk perbuatan ko. aku tak benci ko. tapi kalau ko benci aku. terpulang. aku maafkan ko.
1. sebab life aku bosan. ya BOSAN.
2. aku tak suka cakap pasal aku. pasal diri aku. MISTERIOUS kot. huh.
marah giler aku kat minah tuh. act macam care pasal aku kat kawan aku dan lepas tu kawan aku bawak balik cerita konon aku yang overreact pasal minah tu. well aku overreact pasal dier fake. FAKE. cakap je 'tak marah... tak marah' then bitching dalam blog dier. FAKE. suruh aku cakap kat orang yang tanya pasal dier kat dier sendiri tapi dier sendiri tanya pasal aku kat orang lain. FAKE. konon tak nak join group M pasal group nih banyak mengumpat kat sini then join group C padahal the better half dier kutuk senior aku yang kerja kat kilang kerajaan. FAKE. dier marah orang ynag kutuk maksiat dier tapi kawan baik dier delete semua kawan fb yang seksi sekaligus kutuk dan judging dierorang. FAKE. panggil kawan aku sundal sebab kuar dengan ramai lelaki padahal dier berdua-duaan dalam bilik dengan lelaki. FAKE.
malu la weh. malu lah. at least aku tak kutuk ko, aku tak ignore ko, aku tak ignore soklan ko, tetapi aku kutuk maksiat ko, aku kutuk penipuan ko, aku kutuk perbuatan ko. aku tak benci ko. tapi kalau ko benci aku. terpulang. aku maafkan ko.
Dugaan
Insan jarang perasan yang kebahagiaan, kekayaan atau cinta itu satu dugaan tetapi sering menerima satu kesedihan, kejatuhan atau kemiskinan itu sebagai dugaan tuhan.
Kadang-kadang kita perlu bersyukur Allah beri peringatan dengan dugaan kesusahan. Dengan dugaan ini kita sekurang-kurangnya diberi peluang kerana lumrahnya dengan dugaan kesusahan kita lebih mendekati dan mengingati-Nya.
Bayangkan kalau kita diduga dengan kekayaan? Bukan lumrah untuk kita sedar ini sebagai ujian Allah. Ego mungkin memakan diri. Lalai dan hanyut dibawa arus. Ya bukan semua.
Tetapi adakah Allah akan sentiasa beri kita peluang mendekati Dia? Jangan tunggu hinga di sedarkan. Istiqamah lebih baik.
Semoga hari ini lebih baik daripada hari semalam. :)
Kadang-kadang kita perlu bersyukur Allah beri peringatan dengan dugaan kesusahan. Dengan dugaan ini kita sekurang-kurangnya diberi peluang kerana lumrahnya dengan dugaan kesusahan kita lebih mendekati dan mengingati-Nya.
Bayangkan kalau kita diduga dengan kekayaan? Bukan lumrah untuk kita sedar ini sebagai ujian Allah. Ego mungkin memakan diri. Lalai dan hanyut dibawa arus. Ya bukan semua.
Tetapi adakah Allah akan sentiasa beri kita peluang mendekati Dia? Jangan tunggu hinga di sedarkan. Istiqamah lebih baik.
Semoga hari ini lebih baik daripada hari semalam. :)
One Thing
Ok. I have another break down for this week. I do think it is enough for me to feel such thing. I know this feeling will not bring me to anywhere but to a downfall that normal people wanted to avoid. Yes luckily i am still am.
I do want to mention that both my parent side have medical history of being insane. I believe that i have the choice to protect myself from this genes. I'll just have to stop this! Right now. I know to mention that this means that there is a possibility that i myself believe that I'll may be next. Owh this mental challenge will not fullfill my ambition. Null. Nothing. Nada.
First thing that i want to change about myself is the way i handle my feelings espeacially sad feeling. Before thie and up until now, i have the difficulty to express myself honestly. To tell or not to tell and i always fell that when ever i feel sad, the matter is just not important to other people.
Do you honestly feel that other people problem is important to you unless it does relate to you? Honestly? Is it so important, then why people just listen to you and not doing nothing? What people always say is 'I understand your feeling. I am here for you anytime anywhere.' Reality check people!! 'Dear, it is your problem. Figure it out yourself. I am here just to listen'. Damn!
But somehow. I figure maybe it is good when you tell people what you are really feeling. Not because the advice but the word you are saying. You listen what you are saying. Yes you do humiliate yourself but at least you really let the feeling go out in the air and not just wandering in your brain. Just let it go and you will be looking outside the box. Be looking at yourself.
I do really sound so mix up and confious when i talk to people. Being looked as tough and always be protective to other people does make me weak when i have to handle sadness. Yes i always wanted to prove to people taht I am tough for other people and being protective is always means that i dont want to make people sad listening to my whinning. I hate myself whinning. I rather hearing other people whinning. And i do honestly look up to them because they are outspoken. Not look up like LOOK UP but like wow! i wish i could do that.
When i tell people what i feel, i do have this feeling that not being trust. Like i am telling jokes or lying to them. Are you like reaaaallllyyyy sad???? OMG i just have to be real.
Thanks for this. Keep on flexing your muscle. :D
I do want to mention that both my parent side have medical history of being insane. I believe that i have the choice to protect myself from this genes. I'll just have to stop this! Right now. I know to mention that this means that there is a possibility that i myself believe that I'll may be next. Owh this mental challenge will not fullfill my ambition. Null. Nothing. Nada.
First thing that i want to change about myself is the way i handle my feelings espeacially sad feeling. Before thie and up until now, i have the difficulty to express myself honestly. To tell or not to tell and i always fell that when ever i feel sad, the matter is just not important to other people.
Do you honestly feel that other people problem is important to you unless it does relate to you? Honestly? Is it so important, then why people just listen to you and not doing nothing? What people always say is 'I understand your feeling. I am here for you anytime anywhere.' Reality check people!! 'Dear, it is your problem. Figure it out yourself. I am here just to listen'. Damn!
But somehow. I figure maybe it is good when you tell people what you are really feeling. Not because the advice but the word you are saying. You listen what you are saying. Yes you do humiliate yourself but at least you really let the feeling go out in the air and not just wandering in your brain. Just let it go and you will be looking outside the box. Be looking at yourself.
I do really sound so mix up and confious when i talk to people. Being looked as tough and always be protective to other people does make me weak when i have to handle sadness. Yes i always wanted to prove to people taht I am tough for other people and being protective is always means that i dont want to make people sad listening to my whinning. I hate myself whinning. I rather hearing other people whinning. And i do honestly look up to them because they are outspoken. Not look up like LOOK UP but like wow! i wish i could do that.
When i tell people what i feel, i do have this feeling that not being trust. Like i am telling jokes or lying to them. Are you like reaaaallllyyyy sad???? OMG i just have to be real.
Thanks for this. Keep on flexing your muscle. :D
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